Last letter to my dear.

My most happy life in my university is the 2 years i got to spend with u. Even though it is not a full 2 years but i really happy and appreciate it. I really love u. Until now inside deep of my heart i still very love u. No thing can ever let me forget u. U say tat u still miss me and i can also tell u tat i also miss u a lot. Each time i look at our blog and see ur post, i will sure cry. Perhaps when think back i will sometime feel tat i am very stupid, waiting for u to online every night and day, but the truth is i very enjoy it. I still rmb the day 31st Oct 2010. That day i done the bravest thing in my live. I tell u tat i love u and ask u to be my girlfriend. Until now tat moment on that nite is still inside my mind. Tat is also the nite that i happy until i cant slp the whole nite. During the two years time, u are always by my side, supporting me in each of my stupid decision, never look down on me and take care of my family members as if they are yours family too. All this kind of things that you have done for me making me love u only more and more. U are wrong saying that i have change, the truth is i might have little changes but my heart towards u never change. I always love u more than everything i have. Sometimes i might be a bit rude ask u 滚， but that i never what i really mean. That is only a joke to u. I would never ask u to 滚 from my sight. its true that i might be a bit cold to u and might broke the promise of accompanying u every Wednesday. It is not because i want to break the promise, i really forger it. Ever since i was born, i never have someone like u that are so special to me. I would start to miss u or think about u each time i went to activity and would like to spend my time talking to u on phone eventhough for more than 3 hours. The feeling of boring never come into my mind. All i wan is to chat more with u. I might seems like don wan to chat with u but i really wanna chat more with u. Still rmb when u first call me dar dar. that is the short form of darling that u say u create for me. tat time i m so happy when u call me that. Dunno u still remember it or not. I feel so sad when i see ur post in ur blog especially the last post when u say that we are fully ended. By only seeing it i cry non stop. Why this kind of thing is happening to me? yup, i admit we have ended our relationship when u suggest our break up. Did u noe that on that nite i really don wan to break up with u, i wan to work it out with u. 2 years have been such a long time. Still rmb on the 31st oct this year, i should be our 2nd year anniversary and i only sitting at home alone looking at some of our picture and cry. It might be surprise to u when u see this post that i will cry is it?? haha.. i also feel surprise myself. No matter what i say now its all too late d. No chance to turn the clock back d. i am happy to see that u are starting to moving out of the shadow d. I myself will also try to keep moving on. U might not or will never believe what i am writing now but i really very love u. Everything i say to u come from my heart. No matter how long, u will never get out from my heart. Now i can never give u a wonderful life like we discussed together last time. I can never fulfill my promise towards u can never go to Provence with u. I hope that u will be able to go to Provence in the future, fulfill ur dreams and hope that u will have a happy life in the future. There is nothing that i can give u except my blessings.Finally i still wanna tell u that i love u, u will always live in a place deep inside my heart and never disappear from there. U believe or not is not important but i can tell u 1 last time that i never betray u. Its so hurt when hearing u say that i betray u. Perhaps that is the reason u want to break up with me. If that is the reason i can only say that u are very stupid. I will never betray u de and seems like u are not quite fully understand me at all. if u fully understand me u will noe that i will betray everyone else but not my family which include u. U are so stupid and all these things are unrecoverable now. It will only make me cry when look back to our happy moments. Thank you for giving me a chance to take care of u. I might not have given u enough security in the sense that u think that i had betrayed u. Thank you for always be with me and by my side for everything. U were once my everything and i really appreaciate what ever things that u had given me. I love u my love. This is the last time that i will say i love u to u. I love u. God have given me the opportunity to love u but lastly the opportunity was destroyed. I can no longer accompany u to bus stop to wait for bus, i can no longer help u to settle all ur things, i can no longer be a good listener for all your problems and i can no longer be the one that always stay by urside to love u and take care of u. Goodbye my love.